Saturday, November 11, 2006
River's story--results,tution and fustrations
WARNING:Ok, be ready for some ranting in the foreground. just skip today's entry, readers. I'm in a bad mood.
Just learnt today that I will be having tution the following week. It is to prepare for next year's work.
HELLO! It's after PSLE, and hardly into the december holidays. I HAVE TO WORK AGAIN? WHAT YOU THINK I AM, A MACHINE THAT DOESN'T NEED BREAKS?
Did I mention that I have been preparing for that exam, like, throughout the year?
Oh, apparently I'm gonna have to slorg throughout the holidays.
WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS???????
I am a good student with good grades, and I
don't see
any reasons to start early.
I'm not a bai chi.
Oh, yes, yesterday my teacher announced to the class the top 10 pupils(grades.)
I was no.5.
When I came home and told them, expecting them to be all happy, the reaction I got was totally unexpected.
"No.5 only? Get no.3 lar!"(father)
"Mmm."(mother)
Ni kan?Mei fan ying de.
Ok lar, my parents got say well done, but like no happy emotion.Like dun mean it.
I worked hard and got into top 10(my first position in top 10) and you guys are so ....so unpraising?
I bet if I got no.2, the say:aiyah, 1 more den no.1, lousy lar.
YOU THINK SO EASY TO GET NO.5 ISSIT?
I know I work for myself, but the least, the
least you guys can do is to offer praise!
What, you got some disease, cannot praise if not kena mati arh?
Oh, must be comparing me to other pple children right?
See, that girl help her father carry com up to our house, all you do is to crash my com!
(father)
Or issit
When I was your age, I helped my father manage property in London!All you do is sit there and complain. You know how lucky you are?
(mother)
I am not interested in what you did in the past. I AM TALKING ABOUT THE PRESENT, SO DONT TRY AND MAKE ME FEEL GUILTY.
Past is the past. I don't give a damn about the past. What matters is NOW.
Yes, we are luckier than chilren in our mother's and father's age. Yes, we 'chi' less 'ku'.
But if we did well in our studies, shouldn't you praise us and reward us?
Instead of a reward, I have tution for nxt year while others are slacking off and enjoying themselves.
At first, in the beggining of the year, my mum says I can get B for chinese. Now I got A for prelim, she says I should have gotten A*
How unfair is that?
You think just because I can get good results means I must get A* for EVERY GODDAMN SUBJECT?
DO YOU KNOW HOW TAXING IT IS? EVEN IF YOU GOT INTO UNIVERSITY, DOESNT MEAN I CAN! IF I GET A* FOR EVERY GODDAMN FUCKING THING, I WOULD BE IN GEP!
I don't give a fuck wheter you cooked for your whole fucking family. I don't care so shuddup about the comparing thing.
When I compare to otheres who have the same results as me but have a better life, you say don't compare.
Eh, den you can arh. what abt you leh? This is so pot calling the kettle black! If you don't want me to compare, den you urself dun compare lah!
I hate my life. I hate my parents standards . I think they are too kuo fen.
Did I mention they don't even let me go out of the hpuse alone just to buy bread at 7-eleven?
Most of the adults out there let their p-1 tots go to sch alone. Me leh? Go sch mushave maid, if not kena kidnapper. And for some weird reason, on Charmaine's birthday, she wouldn't let me sleepover. Even Nixyi's mum, who is "supremely" old fashioned(I quote from Nixyi) lets Nixyi sleepover.
Irony is that she allows my friends to sleepover at my house.
Everything oso go to my house. Projects must do at my house or my sch. she reluctantly let me do projects at other ppl's house last year.
Geez. Personality problems much?
FUCK YOU ALL WHO MADE MY LIFE MISERABLE.
11/11/2006 03:02:00 PM
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